I havent written a real entry in xanga in ages. I think i may forget how.

here it goes:

I'm so entirely sick of school, I have another 70-something days left until I'm officially graduated. Thats pretty exciting. However, then comes college, and I recieved all my financial aide papers... andddd the lowest one is 10,500$. With my salary at Krogers... I could have that in .. ohhh i dont know 55 years?! Okay.. prolly 2 years in all actuality. But still... thats assuming I'll NEVER buy anything other than putting my money to student loans and what not. However, I'm going into social work which has a tuition rembersment program along with it, and a major goal of mine is social work in Africa. SOOO theres some tuition payment there. Life is simply stressful.

Still no car. I feel like every paycheck lately is just running away so I havent been able to really save lately. I'm never getting a car again- i'm convinced. Dad says I'll have one before graduation... but i'm getting real impatient.. I miss driving MY OWN car sooooo bad. I applied for a loan from Bobb chevrolet. Havent heard back yet... but I only want one for like 3,000- and I dont even know if they go that low to be entirely honest... as far as researching goes- I didnt do much.

right now I have so much homework, from making up days, and then just regular stuff... I have like 4 tests tommorow- I dont even know what to do with myself. Ironicly I could be doing homework now- but I'm not. So on that note: I think I need to study and get some work done. Its getting late.

xoxox